Heya everyone i hope you are all good ^-^

I am not using this Livejournal as a Journal, but a way to keep incontact with my friends.
Over the past year, (since i deleted my old journal) i have found i was loosing contact with quite alot of my really good friends and feeling slightly isolated from the world. So i thought to myself if i have a livejournal which i can't post in but can see how my friends are doing then things will start to feel better again.

Anyway it's good to see you all again *hugs*
~Aqua

Please feel free to add me so i don't loose contact with you ^-^

OMG OMG OMG Morning Musume at Anime Expo in the US and Hangry&Angry at SakuraCon and i prob can't make either... I NEED A HOLIDAY


"When I was in Musume, Boss Yoshizawa Hitomi gave me a ring, and I treasured it and wore it every day. But I forgot it when I put it down somewhere back at the beginning of the year... I looked everywhere for it, and had basically given up on finding it.

Then today it fell out of a pair of pants I hadn't worn since the day I lost it!

I was so happy, I yelled out, "I found it!!" (lol)

If I hadn't chosen to wear those pants today, I wouldn't have found it! I'm a lucky girl ☆☆ (lol)

I'll never lose it again, Boss Yoshizawa (>３<)"

YOMAKO FOREVER XD <3

OMG the snow is insane...

I live the closes to work so i've been called in.. they make me walk in bahhhhhhhh.
Most people in my department get the bus which is totally suspended..

as much as i love snow... this is now fair bahhhhhhhhhh

Well i'm off now for awhile

Byes

Does anyone have time to help me design a website... I know what i want it to look like, but i don't know how to code it so it will be easy to update.. e.g PHP and things like that!!

If anyone can help please please give me a shout.. Thank you so much

( Website i want to design )

As for life, alot has happened and i'm really not happy at the moment, i have a constant feeeling of sadness and emptyness but i can't explain it. I won't bother you will my toubles though.

Take Care all
xxx

First off i just want to apologies i haven't been reading LJ for ages or anything so i hope everyone is ok and had a fantastic easter.
Happy Birthday to my Dear Yossie for yesterday hehe ^_^ Also Happy birthday to anyone's birthday i've missed i hope you had a great days.

So whats been going on this easter.

It started off with my mum being really ill and me having to take her to doctors appointments, hospitals and other things. She's alot better now but still recovering. I missed LAC cos i was at the hospital so sorry to anyone i said i'd be there.. maybe i'll get a chance to go in July or something.

I went to my friends houseboat for the afternoon, it was load of fun and so pretty. i'd love to live there.

I went to the doctors myself to get blood tests done. All came back ok, but they have discovered i have Gilberts Syndrome, nothing serious but could be one of the reasons i feel ill when i go out and eat. I need to have CBT again too.

Went to Perrin's Birthday party in London. It was great to see everyone again, i'm really sorry i had to leave early, was VERY RUBBISH!!!! I wish i could have stayed. I hope you had a great rest of your weekend and had loads of drunken funness.

I've been going my shooting leagues too.. one went ok i beat my average, the other didn't go too well.. i shot my target man in the groin XD

Did some shopping with Kazz where she didn't buy any shoes ^-^

I've done sod all work and i'm predicting that i am going to fail this semester and will have to re take... Too stressed and unmotivated.. .we'll just have to wait and see.

I got a new hair cut and a new hair colour.. i'll take a photo one day... or i'll just see you all in person first prob :p

I'm going to a birthday party tomorrow, and then a Thai New Year on sunday before heading back to deserted land of portsmouth ;_;

Japan Stuff

I found out my phone won't work in Japan which is a pain but i'll go find an internet cafe or something

Tickets are booked, they just need printing

Concert tickets should be at my door this morning (Row 21 No idea where that would be though, but i'm guessing from the seat numbers i might be looking at their backs... i need a seating arrangement thingy :p)

I got some Yen the other day, not much but i'm hoping i can get some nice stuff and be able to live.. i hope my cards will work in Japans too so i can get more money incase.

I haven't really planned whats we're doing where and when, but i'll get that done soon.... i need to write a diary of some sort.

So yeah Happy Easter again and i hope to see/hear from you guys soon
Take Care
xxx

Tags: birthdays, life, よっすぃ, 日本

This is once again an ANGST filled post so feel free to skip it as usual!!!!!!


I've tried so hard to change who i am over the past month and it's so hard!!!

I still can't seem to "get on with" people and have decent conversations, i feel so alone, even more than before. I feel so isolated and that no one remembers who i am, and if they do they only think of me as that weak cry baby they met before. I promised myself i'd change and i'd be strong. Yes i feel more confident about my work that i can do it and yes some people will do better than me and i can't help it i try my best, but i still feel alone. I don't feel like i have that one best friend i can tell anything to and see all the time like everyone else seems to. I have a big group of friends but no one i can tell absolutly everything to.

In my house i'm the odd one out.. 2 guys go to the cinema, the 2 guys go out bowling the 2 guys hang out at the pub... never once asking if i want to go even though i've asked to go before (see i'm being slightly more assertive now) . the other 2 are a couple, if i ask if they want to go somewhere they come as a pair.. if one wants to the other one doesn't they don't go, whenever i need someone to talk to they're not there... wherever you look they are all over each other. I'm fine with them going out i'm really happy for them... But when you try and have a decent conversation with one and the other ones sucking their brains out their eats it's rather difficult.

As for other "groups" of friends i've always been the odd one out. I've always been the last to do asked to do anything, but every time i do get asked to go out somewhere trains or something get in my way.. money mainly, i can't always drop EVERYTHING and just pop into London ever weekend. This is where i need to be more assertive and ask if i can come, but i don't like forcing my way into people plans.

Parents have been alittle off and making me feel slightly unwanted. Its like everytime i try and talk to them, let them know whats going on good and bad, someone thing happens, someone turns up at the door so they have to hang up, someones asked the to go someone so they have to hang up, someones on the other line..... i just want to talk to them for like 10 mins it's not long... i'm the unwanted forgotten daughter. I tried talking to my mum today a couple of mins ago but i just started to cry and hung up the phone.

Anyway thats my angst for now i'm sure your all expecting me to post more tomorrow so yeah put up with it.

Oh yeah still no heating but i don't care anymore they wanted me to pay like £20 a month extra just to have the heating on when the first think one of them does is open the living room window WIDE... Pointless... Plus i've found not getting out of bed not doing anything all day is making me fat, but at least i'm warm and slightly more depressed

~~~Edit~~~
I am VERY greatful for the friends i have now who i do see and keep in touch with, but some i just don't see the point really

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO what a pooy start to the new year my Yossi is leaving morning musume, but she'll still sing solo and in a new unit hopefully ;___________; OMG WAHHHHHHHHH I'm so upset now...


I NEED TO GET TO JAPAN AND SEE HER IN CONCERT (LAST CONCERT) ON THE 6TH MAY nooooooooooooooo fair i need travel friends and tickets and monies and IT'S NOT FAIR

Due to the unit 2Danr being completely rubbish and shitty.... with the help of all my housemates eating lots of kinder eggs... here is the end product.... WATCH IT

For anyone who care at all (doubtful) I'm in Portsmouth now, and like being at home i prob won't hear from anyone at all so nothing new... so yeah new address is in use.

P.S thankies to Colin and Kazzy for a lovely good luck meal it was yummy and i ate too much *hugs*

To the Community

It is our unfortunate duty to announce that, on the night of the 18th of August, DDR UK's equipment store was broken into and burglarised.

All the boxes of consoles and games, including bags of electrical equipment were stolen - effectively the entire gaming arsenal of DDR:uk, short of the DDR machine itself.

Below, we include an approximate list of what was taken, but before we get onto that we would like to make a plea for information to aid us in tracking down the equipment. We know this is a shot in the dark, but if anyone knows anything we are willing to put a reward to anyone who can provide information leading to the reclamation of the gear. If you do know anything, please contact us or Kingston upon Thames Police Station.

The amount of games, consoles and other equipment that was stolen is too vast to list in its entirety, but this summary should give you an idea how badly we have been affected:

Over 100 console games for a variety of consoles – many of them classics for consoles that have long been out of production. They include, but obviously are not limited to, the Dancing Stage games, a near complete collection of Beatmania for Japanese PS1, Pop’n’Music 9 through 12 for Japanese PS2, and naturally all of our DDR games across the gamut of gaming platforms.

The stolen consoles included: three Sega Mega Drives, a Mega CD, a 32x add on for the Mega Drive, a Sega Saturn, a Dreamcast, a Playstation, two English PS2s, a Japanese PS2, an Xbox, a Nintendo DS and a PSP – the entire DDR:uk console collection.

They also took the wires, memory cards, save games and controllers including the specialist controllers for games like Guitar Hero. Also stolen were the 24" LCD monitor, the colour laser printer, all of DDR:uk’s Hi-Fi and sound equipment, one of the dance mats and several boxes of computer parts.

Ultimately, the value of the stolen goods comes to some £25,000 – this has severely crippled us, both in terms of equipment and finance. DDR:uk has been left unable to do any events in the future. We do not know whether the culprits will be caught, and even if they are it is uncertain whether or not we will retrieve our stolen equipment. So here comes our second request.

If you have anything you can spare - unwanted games, unused consoles, old controllers, spare wires – anything whatsoever, we humbly ask that you consider donating it to our cause. DDR:uk has spent several years bringing classic videogames and first-class gaming entertainment to festival, convention and Expo attendees across the country, and we do not want this crime to stop us providing that service! We would so incredibly grateful for anything you could donate!

Thank you all for your help.

The DDR:uk Team

P.S Also completely wrecked were £600+ of manga donated to us by various companies as sponsers for our conventions.

~~Edit~~
Just added up the total... make that £1300 ;_;

~Aqua

Just thought i'd make the 1 entry.. I found a ticket to Japan today for £275 (not including VAT) and i cried.. I WANT TO GO